Monday, April 11, 2011

It's actually strange going home nowadays. Not only because of going back to the family dynamics of living, but also going back to a relaxed way of life. I've personally had it very easy, if not extremely spoiled, all my life, so Ringling was a big change. However going back now, I feel almost uneasy just sitting on my couch and watching tv. For the better however, I'm much better at doing chores, even doing that without being asked, I know, a big shocker. As different as it is now, being home eventually starts to feel perfect again, and I never want to give it up.
Difference.


I feel I'm very different than everyone around me. Sometimes I feel like a lot of people have certain masks they put on for socializing with certain groups, if not specific people. It's almost painful watching people literally switch right in front of my eyes, as they talk to different people. I feel, or at least hope that I have a little more consistency in the way I act. I try to be honest and happy constantly, because that's how I feel.